Sunday, May 14, 2017

"Demons of Discipline"

Singularity of the word becomes baffling for the serial offenders of discipline, eaten up by their guilt for not sticking to it but always carrying the ambition to stick to it. So, is it important to be disciplined? Or its monotony jeopardizes the creativity of every act once you have repeated it for a week in the name of discipline.  It’s the elephant in the room and that room could belong to an athlete, a politician or a writer. They all talk of the importance of it, battle lines are drawn between sleeping hours and sleepers, between gyms and potential fitness, even between a Buddha and the enlightenment in the lighter sense of the word. Once you have noticed the elephant and taken it seriously, it is going to ram you against the wall until you ride it and riding it on a daily basis could be the biggest ambition of the entire mankind and womankind. To refuse to eat those golden french fries dipped in red tomato sauce, a match seems to be made in heaven, could be the toughest task an Adam or Eve could face looking at their history with a healthy apple.
In the era of internet and you tube this beast has grown to an extraordinary size because constantly we are more and more aware of the competition and resultant comparison in every wake of life as the smallest achievement can be shared, flaunted and sold at a price tag that depends on the common sense of the reader or the viewer and how seriously they take the information or how well do they know themselves. And then, everything related to discipline could be bifurcated in to doing few things and absolutely not doing the others. You have to get up early so you should not remain awake till late. You have to exercise to be fit and not eat sugar. You have to sit and write this column and not check your phone or you tube to write it well. Every distraction comes so cheap and handy that it requires an iron will to stick to anything and that makes it some sort of achievement. Hence the facebook pages are full of celebrations about beginnings which seldom accomplish anything and those hundred likes which are marks of reciprocation almost all the time, do nothing to help.
“Whatever distracts is evil” says Kafka. So it could all be the work of Devil himself, otherwise why would someone knock at your door with a box full of sweets just when you have quit eating high calorie food items or your close friends whom you can’t refuse anything would invite you for a late night party just when you have resolved to get up early in the morning. The devil must have appointed a special set of demons dedicated to derail the divinity which discipline could invoke. How split up we are in a constant state of torment, bingeing on all sorts of ideas of fitness and perfection which are in air with all the distractions. Only if there was no choice in lots of matters, like a car which runs on petrol has no option to be on diesel. As much as having no choice sounds immoral in today’s day and age, in certain matters it could work miracles. If we had no choice of putting the alarm to snooze, if we had no choice but to practice our craft each day, if we had no choice but to have those holidays once in an year. It all starts from there, because after struggling with routine day and night we reach at some deep understanding about certain activities which then become the most important, leaving no choice to be careless regarding them.

After all there is no choice once one knows that one has to reach office by ten. There is terror about this and not understanding. But thinking and understanding the depth of few things or activities could work as holy water against these Demons which we all need to exorcise.  

Thursday, May 4, 2017

"The Age of Reason" - Jean Paul Sartre

The age of reason is 35. How abstract this could be is how precise it is for Mathieu. When your priorities start to become clearer to yourself, there is more chance of one saying no to any proposal rather than agreeing to it because may be it would bring a minor alteration to one’s schedule which more or less signifies the whole of the Age of Reason. To be married or to not to be married so that the same flesh keeps smelling differently, so that those fluids are still sacred which are exchanged in the name of excitement. It is not exactly Jean Paul Sartre is saying but that is how this reader’s interpretation is. Love could be without rhyme or reason so no surprises there, but love could just prolong itself for the seemingly indefinite time till it can’t last anymore because the circumstances are not comfortable enough for the fluids to smell good. Those streets of Paris don’t have much character but those heads have, they are full of Paris and so many other things. We go on, is another interpretation of this reader because we are not left with much choice. Motivation is just like a wave and those gravels of time which it brings forth are coincidental, which are responsible for mood swings because we humans are good at calculating and concluding randomness to fit in to our daily designs of thought and resultant existence. Yes, the thought is our existence without philosophizing it too much. That, I feel Jean Paul Sartre says between the lines.
                                                                       Keep living is not the same thing as keep existing. Now, which is lesser of the two is what Marcelle’s dilemma is and it is not universal, because her concern is not universal when she is trying to matter to herself and the result could be a new life inside her which in some time will try to matter on its own. Ivich is most of us, trying to close eyes but tickled by life, and she is trying to sleep instead of laughing because she is 23 after all and not reaching the age of reason soon enough. She is despondent in her head because she has to be so, juggling hours at various places in Paris at the same time because there is little time and no criteria to judge her judgement.  Off course there is wickedness in Daniel, source of which requires attention from him. He is so much like Marcelle but hides it so much better for nothing in particular because in the end everyone is exposed to Mathieu, including himself, helping his idea of freedom and may be sabotaging it at the same time. Boris is like Ivich just that he loves Mathieu more. His naiveness is dangerous and purposeful like naiveness is most of the time. Rest can do without a mention. It is Jean Paul Sartre work, juicy, stimulating and abstract till it takes a very specific shape and then retains it forever in a reader’s head.